365 days..

This first day of 39.. what did it bring?
So many magical moments. Eija giving me Styx on vinyl, being able to rock out to the same songs that I did at 12 with my own kids. There is something so magic about being able to hear an album and experience every bump and every groove.
Shawn again teaching me the lesson of delayed gratification, and surprise. It was really amazing to see the disappointment on the kid's faces this morning as they looked under the tree and did not see what they were at first expecting.
We made them hunt for their presents and the looks of surprise and happiness was so worth it.
Eija got her first instrument, a shiny silver bass. I know that she is going to do well this, it suits her personality.
Tajo is walking that fine line between child and young man. His body is growing so fast, it is really interesting to see him self aware, saying I can feel that I am taller. Both of their bodies are changing so fast.. as are our adult bodies.
I can feel that if I do not start moving stretching that my body will begin to atrophy.
So this year I make the commitment to movement, to honouring my body, with the food I put in and with exercise. Also I think it is about time to be self aware, recognize where emotions and knee jerk reactions are coming from and take some time to reflect.
Big commitments are hard.. I am going to work with little chunks each day with hopes that this year sees real change.
The cabin is almost done.. making this happen will mark a physical finishing that Shawn and I both need to be able to move forward... closure and a sense of accomplishment.